cool special features...

meet pregnant barbie, midge hadley (awful name). she has it all, just like any barbie, a husband, 2 kids, and a removable belly for her third. i wish i had the cool feature to take my belly off and instantly produce a baby. oh and a responsible male figure by my side. regrettably, i still have 4 more months until i pop and a life time of legal battles ahead. 

last nite would have been a great night to be a pregnant barbie. last night i went to the XXL freshmen concert. i forgot what the rap world was like. i was totally expecting a young hipsterish crowd, but special guest cam'ron bought the hood ni#&as out. illegal smoke and drank filled the air, an environment and past time i've avoided for some time. I was hit on by guys, and just didn't understand why. in my head i'm thinking "dont you see i'm pregnant? shouldn't you be running away from me?" I felt like i should've been a lepar, but it was the complete opposite. I was getting compliments, drink offers, and oddly career advice. everyone assumed i worked for XXL or some press or was a designer. when i replied i didnt, they said you look like you could, and should. i did more talking than rapping along last nite.

i left right after cam'ron came on. the set was wack because he was more so letting his group u.n run things. and it was getting late for us. i got home around 2:30 and knocked out. i ended up over sleeping because i just felt so awful in the morning. i had a banging headache and my tummy and back were aching. idk if my body and baby was mad at me for being around smoke, but i probably won't take that chance anymore.

i finally get to work, late, and no one is there. hardly anything got accomplished, and then the baby's father decided to annoy us. always enticing us with lunch! whenever i see his face my body has an awful reaction. at this point it can't be anything but anger since every previous meeting has just been utterly ridiculous in requests on his behalf. i hope this is the end of these meetings. i really can't take anymore. i can't seem to do any right by him, even when i'm not doing anything. this situation doesn't seem to be working itself out, nor can me and him come to an agreement on anything. all i can do is pray for a miraculous, unexplainable outcome, besides this beautiful creature inside me.